Wednesday, June 9, 2010

For the past two months I have been wading through the balance of bold faith and steadfast trust in God's sovereignty. I'm slowly discovering how the two go hand in hand.

I am 15 weeks pregnant. I have hesitated to tell friends and family, and I hesitate to write that even now. To be congratulated feels really strange...I think I'm still very much in denial. Don't get me wrong...I'm so, so thankful. This is something we have prayed for and waited on the Lord for for what seemed like a long time. But, pregnancy is also a huge risk to me now, and to be excited means that I am hopeful, and to be hopeful means that I could end up devastated again.

So, I'm working through how to ask God for a healthy pregnancy and a screaming baby in a few months, but with the knowledge that God's plans are not my own and that, no matter what tomorrow holds, He will walk with us. There are moments that I am overcome with fear and guilt, but for the most part, I have a genuine peace.

Thank you for praying with us in the days and weeks ahead.


  1. YAY! I know we've congratulated you guys in person, but I want you to know just how thrilled we are for you!! You and baby are in my prayers.

  2. Love you and praying for you. I just read that and when I saw you at the podium last night I didn't know you were pregnant, but you had a lovely glow. :) Congrats.

  3. Congrats! We pray you can find peace through this pregnancy. Thanks for sharing the news!

  4. Congratulations on your pregnancy! We are praying for you and Shaun and this new baby inside you. So happy for you... Love Sharon (and Kevin too)