We had a wonderful morning on Monday! Lots of anxiety leading up to the ultrasound, but just before walking back to that little ultrasound room, a place of such harrowing memories, I was reminded very poignantly that the God Who walked into that little room with us would be the same God when we walked out, no matter what. Our circumstances in no way change Who God is. I read Psalm 71 on Monday morning:
But as for me, I will always have hope;
I will praise You more and more.
My mouth will tell of your righteousness,
of Your salvation all days long,
though I know not its measure.
I will come and proclaim Your mighty acts, O Sovereign Lord;
I will proclaim Your righteousness, Yours alone.
Since my youth, O God, You have taught me,
and to this day I declare Your marvelous deeds.
Even when I am old and gray,
do not forsake me, O God,
'til I declare Your power to the next generation,
Your might to all who are to come.
Your righteousness reaches to the skies, O God,
You Who have done great things.
Who, O God, is like You?
Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter,
You will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
You will again bring me up.
You will increase my honor
and comfort me once again.
And, there was absolutely no concerns about this baby whatsoever. The umbilical cord is the right length at this stage with excellent bloodflow. She's a perfectly healthy little girl! She sucked her thumb for almost the entire 45 minutes and had her legs crossed at the ankles like a little lady. :-) As we prepare for this sweet girl's arrival, we prepare in HOPE.
God is so good. Today Shaun and I are celebrating our 4th anniversary. I told a friend this morning that if someone had told me a year ago, in the midst of such heartache, how full our lives would be today, I wouldn't have believed them for a second. Not perfect, but incredibly full. We are blessed.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Tomorrow morning we have our 20-week ultrasound. As much as most days seem to drag on with wondering (and some definite worry), I really can't believe that it's been 20 weeks! As excited as I am to see this wiggling, little baby on the screen, I'm also really nervous.
Ultrasounds have been some of the most horrific experiences of my life.
And Satan wants me to be anxious and assume the worst as we walk into that little room tomorrow. I know, without a doubt, that God will walk into that room with us, though. And, no matter what, He will walk out of that room with us, too. He is the same today as He will be tomorrow at this time.
Please pray for a genuine peace to cover over us in the morning. Thanks!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Of this I am convinced:
My God is bigger than any trial He asks me to walk through.
My doubt does not restrain how great God is.
His power is made perfect in my weakness.
His provision is without limits. He is enough.
God is glorified in my offering of pain.
He has the last word on death.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
"I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?"