I wonder if the month of May will ever not be painful.
I wonder if Mother's Day will truly feel celebratory this side of heaven.
I wonder if that sick feeling in my stomach will ever go away when someone asks me if Kaylee is my oldest.
I wonder what life would be like if Kaylee really was my oldest.
I wonder how I'm going to appropriately share with Kaylee about her big brother.
I wonder what it will be like when our family is finally together and complete.