Saturday, May 7, 2011

I wonder if the month of May will ever not be painful.

I wonder if Mother's Day will truly feel celebratory this side of heaven.

I wonder if that sick feeling in my stomach will ever go away when someone asks me if Kaylee is my oldest.

I wonder what life would be like if Kaylee really was my oldest.

I wonder how I'm going to appropriately share with Kaylee about her big brother.

I wonder what it will be like when our family is finally together and complete.


  1. Blessings to you, my darling Courtney, this Mother's Day. I pray that May's won't always be this hard. Today, I sit with you (from afar, in my Chicago living room) in your loss of your son and with the birth of your lovely daughter. Such highs and lows all in one Mother's Day.

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  3. You have been on my mind much as May has begun. I have been praying for you surrounding this Mother's Day. As we celebrate the Mother that you are to Kaylee, we still deeply miss Zachary.