Sunday, October 24, 2010

This weekend we were absolutely blessed with multiple baby showers for our daughter. It was such sweet time with people who truly love our children. It was easy to celebrate the arrival of our girl with the recognition that I've already been a mommy for a year and a half. We have awesome friends.

And, yet, even after spending hours in that baby room this weekend organizing gifts, sorting pink clothes into appropriate sizes and putting up decorations, there is still a huge disconnect in my mind between the preparation for this baby and the possibility that we might actually get to bring her home and put her to bed in that room and dress her in those adorable outfits. I don't know if it's just because I still can't seem to let my mind go there, or if I simply have no concept of what it will be like to leave the hospital with a baby. Such a strange feeling...

But Shaun and I are just praising God for His faithfulness. Enjoying today and learning not to worry so much about tomorrow. No matter where we're headed, God's already been there. I think back to what I was feeling at this time last year, and I'm so thankful for His healing in my heart. I've learned so much about Who He is and how limited I am. He is our Hope and our Sustainer, both now and always.


  1. I can understand your feelings. I'm not as far along as you, but it is hard to believe that this baby will come home with us, that I will be able to wear all of my maternity clothes this time, that I might actually go on maternity leave when this pregnancy is over instead of taking time off to grieve. The thought of actually leaving the hospital with a baby in my arms seems about as likely as winning the lottery, but it happens everyday and it could very well happen for us.

  2. Was sad to miss the shower.

    Praying for you and just prayed for Dana.