Saturday, February 5, 2011

We have been battling fear for the past week. From Shaun waking up five times a night just to make sure that Kaylee is still breathing, to me imagining up every worst case scenario for her cold symptoms, I know Satan is just loving watching us suffer within anxiety's grip. It is a minute-by-minute battle to trust the Lord and place Kaylee's life in His sovereign hands once again.


You'd think I would have it down by now.

It frustrates me that I don't.

I'm so thankful that God is patient with me. I've been learning lately that when we're following Him by faith, He usually only illuminates the path a few steps in front of us. Just enough to know where to take the next step. Kind of like a flashlight, not a floodlight. And, really, I don't think we would want to be able to see everything that lies ahead of us. One step at a time is okay.

"Those who know Your name trust in You,
for You, Lord, have never forsaken
those who seek You."
- Psalm 9:10


  1. Praying for your protection.


  2. Hey Court,
    Sometimes I get anxiety gripped to about my kids too. Going in to check on them, imagining the worst even if cold or flu symptoms aren't that bad. Sometimes it is about someone coming to kidnap them or me forgetting them somewhere. It is horrible. I battle with who do I love more God or my Children. What do I fight for the most. Prayer is humbling and often brings me to tears for fear of trusting.
    Anyway, I am sorry that you are battling right now. I am praying for you. The battle makes me cry.
    Love you,