Friday, January 14, 2011

One of the greatest joys of the past seven (yikes, seven!) weeks has been to watch Shaun love Kaylee. I know that it fulfills a deep longing in his heart to be a dad..a hole that had been left painfully empty after Zachary died...and he is awesome. Really awesome.

Kaylee is a really easy baby (I guess I don't know what a difficult baby is, but she seems easy...), but after 10pm she doesn't do quite as well. She's a bit of a terror, actually. But, Shaun discovered before we had even left the hospital that if he held Kaylee up close to his face when she was upset and whispered right in her ear that she would calm down. The same is true if he walks around and sings to her (only hymns for some reason, though...she starts screaming again if we try to sing a chorus...I've discovered how limited repertoire of hymns is!).

There have been many nights as I have watched Shaun walk circles around the living room while whispering to Kaylee or singing over her that I have thought to myself, 'Do I recognize the sound of my heavenly Father's voice like that? Is my life quiet enough to hear His whisper? And do I trust the love and comfort of a Father who delights in me enough to sing over me?'

I love Zephaniah 3:17 (ESV):
"The Lord your God is in your midst, a Mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing."

I feel so blessed that my daughter has a daddy who loves her so, so much. But I feel even more blessed that we have a heavenly Father who, not only holds our lives in His strong hands, but loves us enough to hold us close and whisper words of comfort and peace when we need it.


  1. Sweet, tender thoughts Courtney. Thanks.


    P.S. You will have to invite Heidi over. She knows some hymns, but only ones that have the word blood in the title. :)

  2. So sweet! Thank you so much for sharing. ;)

  3. Wow i just wanted to say how touching your story is to me. My husband and I had a stillborn child on Oct 5,2010. I was 38 weeks. It gives me hope reading your posts that there is a God and He is always there to guide us. Thank you so much for writing this.

  4. Brittany - I'm so sorry that your baby is gone. I would love to hear more about your story and to see pictures of your sweet babe if you'd like to share them. My email is Hope to hear from you soon.